BOO ! :D

2011-10-20T14:57:00.003+08:00

21 years old now.
Yet i still don't feel like i live up to that age.
Always have this feeling that this isn't the kind of life im living.
Im actually ashamed of myself when i look at how others are living their life.
I don't wanna make a fool outta myself, my life.
Well. I needa build up a good self image and earn respect from others.
Trying, yet not to my best.

2010-09-17T11:37:00.000+08:00

Let nature, takes its course.

2010-09-02T12:35:00.004+08:00

I remembered last year which month i fell
For you, it was our first photo together.
Does that ever ring a bell?
The feeling was so real
Never had i been so sure

I remembered the times that we set
The places where we met
And the topics that we chat
Reminisced those times
But now we're like distant ice

I remembered the past you
The one i hated before i .... you
When i sat down and advised you
And be there just for you
Til i see the tremendous change for the good in you

I remembered the sweetness of you when you smile
And how you have been living all this while
Press on to your life, mile after mile
I realized, i can't see you cry
Because it pains me like dunno why

I remembered, and i always remember
And it all started last December
Well, what do you know, Its already September
Doesn't matter how long it takes, just, remember
I'll be waiting, until you, remember.

Situations may change
Personality may change
Everything may change
But
One thing will never.

My heart will never.

2010-09-01T14:19:00.005+08:00

多的是，你不知道的事。

I guess, i missed you, too much.

2010-07-28T22:17:00.007+08:00

I'll wait, for you.

Just call my name, and
I'll be there.

2010-07-27T17:46:00.002+08:00

*Passing by*
*Looked secretly*
*Turns away*

Gotta restrain. Gotta restrain.
Well, at least for now.

2010-07-22T10:43:00.007+08:00

Can't really do anything right now
For all the damages i've seen your frown
And right now im in no position
To make decision forbidding precision
I looked at the broken pieces on the floor
And kicked them right outta the open door
These fizzucking pieces flew right back at me
Right through my inner thinner core
It feels so good and it got me back ony my couch
It pricks like wahaha
And when writing down is where i can express
My anguish, my remorse and i got so depressed
No request, not a redress, be at my best
Trying to get things off my chest
Trying not to treat like trash
Solutions cannot be bought by cash
Benjamins can't buy you all ships
Perhaps Poseidon or Titanics
It ain't gonna get you fleets
To get you back on your feet
Like Friend, Relation and Kins
BAM! WHAM! Crashed! And, sinking
I sat down thinking, and got myself, ringing
So here i stand, and then again i sit, thinking
Looking at this crap weeping
Turn off the leaking you, freaking
He definitely deserves to be called for a, beating
Let go my pride and went for the hide
Keeping in this fight, only comes out in the night
Shutting myself down, now, guess thats what is right

2010-07-21T13:12:00.007+08:00

Eminem (Feat. Rihanna)

Love The Way You Lie

[Chorus - Rihanna]
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
Well that's all right because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
Well that's all right because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

[Eminem - Verse 1]
I can't tell you what it really is, I can only tell you what it feels like
And right now it's a steel knife in my windpipe
I can't breathe but I still fight while I can fight
As long as the wrong feels right it's like I'm in flight
High off her love, drunk from my hate, it's like I'm huffin' paint
And I love it the more I suffer, I suffocate
And right before I'm about to drown, she resuscitates me, she fuckin' hates me
And I love it, "wait, where you goin'?"
"I'm leavin' you," "no you ain't come back"
We're runnin' right back, here we go again
So insane, cause when it's goin' good it's goin' great
I'm superman with the wind in his back, she's Lois Lane
But when it's bad it's awful, I feel so ashamed I snap
Whose that dude? I don't even know his name
I laid hands on her
I never stoop so low again
I guess I don't know my own strength

[Chorus]
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
Well that's all right because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
Well that's all right because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

[Eminem - Verse 2]
You ever love somebody so much you can barely breathe
When you with em you meet and neither one of you even know what hit em
Got that warm fuzzy feeling
Yeah them chills used to get em
Now you're getting fuckin' sick of lookin' at em
You swore you'd never hit em, never do nothin' to hurt em
Now you're in each other's face spewin' venom in your words when you spit em
You push pull each other's hair
Scratch claw hit em throw em down pin em
So lost in the moments when you're in em
It's the rage that took over,it controls you both
So they say it's best to go your seperate ways
Guess that they don't know ya
Cause today that was yesterday
Yesterday is over, it's a different day
Sound like broken records playin' over
But you promised her next time you'll show restraint
You don't get another chance
Life is no nintendo game, but you lied again
Now you get to watch her leave out the window
Guess that's why they call it window pane

[Chorus]
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
Well that's all right because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
Well that's all right because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

[Eminem - Verse 3]
Now I know we said things, did things, that we didn't mean
And we fall back into the same patterns, same routine
But your temper's just as bad as mine is, you're the same as me
When it comes to love you're just as blinded
Baby please come back, it wasn't you, baby it was me
Maybe our relationship isn't as crazy as it seems
Maybe that's what happens when a tornado meets a volcano
All I know is I love you too much to walk away though
Come inside, pick up the bags off the sidewalk
Don't you hear sincerity in my voice when I talk?
Told you this is my fault, look me in the eyeball
Next time I'm pissed I'll aim my fist at the drywall
Next time there won't be no next time
I apologize even though I know it's lies
I'm tired of the games I just want her back
I know I'm a liar if she ever tries to fuckin' leave again
I'ma tie her to the bed and set this house on fire

[Chorus]
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
Well that's all right because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
Well that's all right because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

[End]

2010-06-17T17:06:00.003+08:00

Eminem : Not Afraid Lyrics

I'm not afraid, to take a stand
Everybody, come take my hand
We'll walk this road together, through the storm
Whatever weather, cold or warm
Just to let you know that you're not alone
Holla if you feel like you've been down the same road

Intro

Yea, It's been a ride....
I guess I had to, go to that place to get to this one
Now some of you, might still be in that place
If you're trying to get out, just follow me
I'll get you there.

Verse 1

You can try and read my lyrics off of this paper before I lay 'em
But you won't take the sting out these words before I say 'em
Cause ain't no way I'mma let you stop me from causing mayhem
When I say I'mma do something I do it, I don't give a damn
What you think, I'm doin' this for me, so fuck the world
Feed it beans, it's gassed up if it thinks it's stopping me
I'mma be what I set out to be, without a doubt undoubtedly
And all those who look down on me I'm tearing down your balcony
No if's, and's, or but's don't try to ask him why or how can he
From Infinite down to the last Relapse album he's still shit
and whether he's on salary or paid hourly
Until he bows out or he shits his bowels out of him
Whichever comes first, for better or worse
He's married to the game, like a "fuck you" for Christmas
His gift is a curse, forget the earth he's got the urge
To pull his dick from the dirt and fuck the whole universe

Chorus

I'm not afraid, to take a stand
Everybody, come take my hand
We'll walk this road together, through the storm
Whatever weather, cold or warm
Just to let you know that you're not alone
Holla' if you feel like you've been down the same road

Verse 2

Okay quit playin' with scissors and shit, and cut the crap
I shouldn't have to rhyme these words in a rhythm for you to know it's a rap
You said you was king, you lied through your teeth
For that fuck your feelings, instead of getting crowned you're getting capped
And to the fans, I'll never let you down again, I'm back
I promise to never go back on that promise, in fact
Let's be honest, that last Relapse CD was "ehhh"
Perhaps I ran them accents into the ground
Relax, I ain't going back to that now
All I'm try'na say is get back, click-clack, blaow (shotgun)
Cause I ain't playin' around
There's a game called circle and I don't know how
I'm way too up to back down
But I think I'm still try'na figure this crap out
Thought I had it mapped out but I guess I didn't
This fucking black cloud still follows me around
But it's time to exercise these demons
These motherfuckers are doing jumping jacks now

Chorus

I'm not afraid, to take a stand
Everybody, come take my hand
We'll walk this road together, through the storm
Whatever weather, cold or warm
Just to let you know that you're not alone
Holla if you feel like you've been down the same road

Bridge

And I just can't keep living this way
So starting today I'm breaking out of this cage
I'm standing up, I'mma face my demons
I'm manning up, I'mma hold my ground
I've had enough, now I'm so fed up
Time to put my life back together right now

Verse 3

It was my decision to get clean, I did it for me
Admittedly, I probably did it subliminally for you
So I could come back a brand new me, you helped see me through
And don't even realize what you did, believe me you
I been through the ringer, but they can do little to the middle finger
I think I got a tear in my eye, I feel like the king of
My world, haters can make like bees with no stingers, and drop dead
No more beef flingers, no more drama from now on, I promise
To focus solely on handling my responsibilities as a father
So I solemnly swear to always treat this roof like my daughters and raise it
You couldn't lift a single shingle on it
Cause the way I feel, I'm strong enough to go to the club
or the corner pub and lift the whole liquor counter up
Cause I'm raising the bar, I shoot for the moon
But I'm too busy gazing at stars, I feel amazin' and

Chorus

I'm not afraid, to take a stand
Everybody, come take my hand
We'll walk this road together, through the storm
Whatever weather, cold or warm
Just to let you know that you're not alone
Holla if you feel like you've been down the same road

2010-03-11T12:58:00.002+08:00

Okay its been centuries since i last updated my blog.
Shall update a lil something today then.
2 Years of ITE had finally come to an end!
Woots thats so great!
And yeah, my team has been selected for the SAFMC.
Its a competition on modeling planes and stuffs.
Gotta head down to Science Center tomorrow.
Neck still ache. Back still ache. AH!
Shall get on with life still.
Next direction. NS/Polytechnic!
Commando. ._.
Meanwhile anyone got a job to offer? Good pay if can! :D

2009-09-28T01:05:00.003+08:00

From the Jay with a Z
From the A to the Z
He's on the way to flee
On my way to my pee
I see what i see
Dismayed, i was like,geez?
Someone get rid of the overflowed current
Simply use the hose or all the more,button?
Well yeah the button din turned harden
Or did mutton pop outta a sudden?
Please press the button with ur lil finger
That tingles dun act up while u linger
And mingle on the single non jingle
Non hinder 'Oh So Not Zinger" button

After that comes with a this
And this follows with a that
Things with a twist
Seems to be beneath my fist
I won't slit my wrist?
Nor i will hide between the mist?
No matter what it is
Will try to take it like a breeze
Like im eating some cheese
And some of it got into my nose
Here i go with a sneeze!
Cheese outta the hose
Sneezed right outta my nose
Freezed,i felt so gross
Brisked,closed.

Things are moving at very fast pace
Keep yourself running in this race
Though there might be haze
Fight over it an unimaginable crazed
That brings forth exceedingly strong Faith
It aint'gonna block your face
Be embraced in HIS grace
Taste the pace while you're in HIS place
Just dun get dazed!

2009-09-25T10:26:00.001+08:00

Disappointed.Shag.

2009-08-06T18:21:00.002+08:00

Eminem — Beautiful lyrics

Lately I've been hard to reach
I've been too long on my own
Everyone has a private world
Where they can be alone
Are you calling me, are you trying to get through
Are you reaching out for me, and I'm reaching out for you

I'm just so fuckin' depressed
I just can seem to get out this slump
If I could just get over this hump
But I need something to pull me out this dump
I took my bruises, took my lumps
Fell down and I got right back up
But I need that spark to get psyched back up
In order for me to pick that mic back up
I don't know how I pry away
And I ended up in this position I'm in
I starting to feel distant again
So I decided just to pick this pen
Up and tried to make an attempt to vent
But I just can't admit
Or come to grips, with the fact that
I may be done with rap
I need a new outlet
I know some shits so hard to swallow
And I just can't sit back and wallow
In my own sorrow
But I know one fact
I'll be one tough act to follow
One tough act to follow
Copy
One tough act to follow
Here today, gone tomorrow
But you have to walk a thousand miles

Chorus

Walk my shoes, just to see
What it's like, to be me
All be you, let's trade shoes
Just to see what I'd be like to
Feel your pain, you feel mine
Go inside each other's mind
Just to see what we find
Look at shit through each other's eyes

But don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful OoOo
They can all get fucked. Just stay true to you sOoOoo
Don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful OoOo
They can all get fucked. Just stay true to you

I think I'm starting to lose my sense of humor
Everything is so tense and gloom
I almost feel like I gotta check the temperature in the room
Just as soon as I walk in
It's like all eyes on me
So I try to avoid any eye contact
Cause if I do that then it opens a door to conversation
Like I want that...
I'm not looking for extra attention
I just want to be just like you
Blend in with the rest of the room
Maybe just point me to the closest restroom
I don't need fucking man servin'
Tryin to follow me around, and wipe my ass
Laugh at every single joke I crack
And half of them ain't even funny like that
Ahh Marshall, you're so funny man, you should be a comedian, god damn
Unfortunately I am, but I just hide behind the tears of a clown
So why don't you all sit down
Listen to the tale I'm about to tell
Hell, we don't have to trade our shoes
And you don't have to walk no thousand miles

Chorus

Walk my shoes, just to see
What it's like, to be me
All be you, let's trade shoes
Just to see what I'd be like to
Feel your pain, you feel mine
Go inside each other's mind
Just to see what we find
Look at shit through each other's eyes

But don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful OoOo
They can all get fucked. Just stay true to you sOoOoo
Don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful OoOo
They can all get fucked. Just stay true to you sOoOoo

Nobody asked for life to deal us
With these bullshit hands with doubt
We have to take these cards ourselves
And flip them, don't expect no help
Now I could have either just
Sat on my ass and pissed and moaned
But take this situation in which I'm placed in
And get up and get my own
I was never the type of kid
To wait but I know to unpack his bags
Never sat on the porch and hoped and prayed
For a dad to show up who never did
I just wanted to fit in
Every single place
Every school I went
I dreamed of being that cool kid
Even if it meant acting stupid
Aunt Edna always told me
Keep making that face till it gets stuck like that
Meanwhile I'm just standing there
Holding my tongue up trying to talk like this
Till I stuck my tungue on the frozen stop sign poll at 8 years old
I learned my lesson and cause I wasn't tryin to impress my friends no more
But I already told you my whole life story
Not just based on my description
Cause where you see it from where you're sitting
Is probably 110% different
I guess we would have to walk a mile
In each other's shoes, at least
What size you where?
I wear tens
Let's see if you can fit your feet

Chorus

Walk my shoes, just to see
What it's like, to be me
All be you, let's trade shoes
Just to see what I'd be like to
Feel your pain, you feel mine
Go inside each other's mind
Just to see what we find
Look at shit through each other's eyes

But don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful OoOo
They can all get fucked. Just stay true to you sOoOoo
Don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful OoOo
They can all get fucked. Just stay true to you sOoOoo

Lately I've been hard to reach
I've been too long on my own
Everyone has a private world
Where they can be alone... sOoOoo
Are you calling me, are you trying to get through OoOo
Are you reaching out for me, and I'm reaching out for you sOoOoo Oo Oo

Yea... To my babies. Stay strong. Daddy will be soon
And to the rest of the world, god gave you the shoes
That fit you, so put em on and wear em
And be yourself man, be proud of who you are
Even if it sounds corny,
Don't ever let no one tell you, you ain't beautiful

2009-08-05T16:43:00.002+08:00

Blogging now.
Just came back from school.
Tired. =.=
Feel like sleeping.
Anyway went to CMPB yesterday to do my deferment
Turns out to be that i cant defer anymore
I have to book my medical appointment
Well,Ns drawing near soon.
I got to know that i might be going in next year june
Unless i get to go to poly.
Hah. Its gonna be there before i know it.
Alrights,im still down with aches.

Its really good to hear your voice, saying my name, it sounds so sweet.

2009-06-28T01:47:00.000+08:00

ZZZZ
Ulcer.
Walao.

2009-02-22T23:58:00.002+08:00

Gotta get it right

WIth the inner self you must fight

Stripped on tights

Walking with might

To somewhere thats bright

To somewhere with greater heights

Jumped and fell

Hit da bell

Damn its pain like hell

Locked in the cell of living hell

Yelled and yelled

Wanting to get well

A story to tell

With a mouth that smells

Hah? Save it

And yeah save it

Dun speak

Dun even have the cheek to speak

Little did you know that you will be a freak that creak

Dun be weak but learn to be meek

Hang out with the right cliques

Not with the right chicks

Abandon all tricks to avoid pricks

Thats sick

Gotta learn quick

Dun wanna see people bleed

Its time that Shady stands to all his mistakes

And no re takes or intakes

But amends and not to laments

2009-02-12T00:24:00.002+08:00

When i was young, i remember i will run to you every morning

Asking you to buy for me my breakfast

Fried carrot cake or Roti Prata.

You always got it for me

Sometimes when i want to buy my cards collection for Dragonball

You never fail to buy for me

I would always impress you with my drawings in the past

So that you can gimme pocket money for me to spend

But see u in this state now, guess you wont be able to see what i drew for you now..

2009-01-26T02:37:00.002+08:00

I seemed to lost the passion for blogging.

Used to do it daily.

But now maybe fortnightly?

Happy Chinese New Year to all!

Year of an Ox.

H.O.P.E is a good year for me.

Its weird.

It gets different for every year.

Likely nothing stays the same?

Hah. Randoms here.

Studies.

Shit man. Zzz

I myself already knew whether can i pull it through.

But i dun wanna let what i saw materialized.

There are many things i have to work on.

And i'm working on it.

Many aspects gotta change.

Will,Determination,Passion,Discipline and the list just goes on.

No one's perfect on this earth.

Except the One above.

Well..

See you soon.

2009-01-16T02:40:00.002+08:00

I don't feel comfortable over myself for the past few months

Damn.

Wanted to go and see a doc, but on 2nd thoughts, i think not. =O

Won't die anyway.( Though the feeling felt like dying)

Man!~

不想放弃你

I guess u also dun care anyway.

2009-01-12T23:47:00.002+08:00

I am rather blur nowadays.

I am suppose to go to school by 11 today but i actually woke up at 7

Zzzz.

Went back to sleep then

Woke up 3 hours later and wen to school.

Teacher never come

Relief teacher took over

Did nothing in class

Bla Bla Bla~

Went to 116 and played basketball with Jon and company

Was fun but tired

Slacked at the court there then my dad sent me kl and kel home.

The truth is always hurting

Face it

Yeah face it

I will have to learn to let go......

2008-12-26T00:59:00.002+08:00

Its Christmas!

Well, so?

LOL.

=.=

Woke up at around 11 plus

Damn tired luhs.

Online and went back to sleep!

Then went out at 1215 and headed to Bedok inter to meet ppl.

Reached le wait and wait~

Then when all came, headed to East Coast Park

Praise and Worship in da public.

Omgosh.

Been a year since we did it again

After that witness the baptism of Melvin(Isaiah), Chen Kai(Joseph) and Kelvin Sin.

Took a break after that and had games!

Play play play~

Ended at around 5 plus.

Fellowshipped and went to nearby hawker eat!

Hang out awhile and went home at 9 plus.

世上最远的地方不是天涯海角,

而是我在你身边你不知我爱你!

Opportunity dun come easy.

2008-12-25T02:00:00.002+08:00

Its Christmas!

Merry Christmas and a Happy New year to everyone!

Went to church and had powerhouse

Shared our thanksgiving. Nice. =D

After that stayed back at church

Hang around

Sent Eunice home and went home. =/

I'm so disappointed luhs.

From that moment when i dun see u,

i am beginning to miss you.

Real bad.

2008-12-24T02:27:00.002+08:00

Went to Hougang Mall and made my ez link.

Finally. ZZZ

Headed down to meet Kl,Nich and Lionel.

Ate at KFC then went to tm

Caught 'Yes Man'.

Pretty hilarious. =/

Went down to church and hang out awhile.

Homed.

I did that for ya.

2008-12-22T22:09:00.003+08:00

Okay

Sorry for those daily readers that i have not been updating my blog.

>.<

Woa!

Amazing Christmas is finally over!

Haha. Nice

All those hard work that all of us put in have come to pass. :D

Take a break~

Well,woke up at 11 plus today

Tummy ache! =.=

Did wat i need to do.

ZZZZ.

Then went to Feng shan cc play basket ball with Kelvin and co.

Omg la. Lost skills. Siao liao

Need more prac.

Played til afternoon 3 plus then headed for lunch with Kelvin,Kl,Emerson,Darius and Zech

Took porridge with alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot of pepper.

Damn nice. lol

Try it.

Haha. Headed home after that.

TIRED!

我喜欢你.

I can do nothing

But to wait

There's already someone else in ur heart

Sigh.

2008-11-28T00:05:00.002+08:00

Ok.

I am updating my blog

For someone's sake.

Haha

Alright.

Screwed up day today.

Woke up at 8(i purposely woke up late).

Took a bus to school.

Funny la.

I slept in bus 45.

Expecting to sleep til my designated stop

But then i overslept.

Over sat my stop.

I took a bus trip for 2 hours.

DAMN!

When i reached school, lesson ended. =.=

Great. just so great~

After that went home and backed to school at 1.

My subject teacher in charge is also my discipline master

He warned me about my hair

I din bother. He pointed out my side burn

I never cut. (:

When he was trying to catch, i quickly hid my side burn!

LOL!

I look like a girl. =.=

WEIRD LUHS!~

Had 4 hours of theory lessons.

Then headed home.

Tired.

爱你在心口难开. 你知道吗? (:

2008-11-05T02:32:00.003+08:00

From neck to back

Back to neck

Zzzzz.

I am feeling terrible.

Kaoz.

And yeah.

I dun like anyone now.

Its empty~

2008-10-27T20:02:00.002+08:00

On this day where lights are lit on a festival

Here i am, cooped at home feeling terrible

Got an ache that have what it takes to tear my mandible

Damn that ache, chop off my head

Remove that weight and return that fate

Slice off my neck,stab on my back

Spice up with a price,topped that with ice

That doesn't feel comfortable at all

Oh please remove the pain before i really fall

Standing tall, maybe going back to crawl

Depending on my knees to stop

Having a blister is terrible to walk

Got it from a match of basketball

Sore losers thats what i would call

Forget it

No point spoiling my mood to eat

Settled down on my seat

And..

2008-10-26T01:53:00.001+08:00

When you feel like it,it just don't wanna flow outta it.

2008-10-26T01:31:00.001+08:00

I love punching the wall

Cause it makes me feel real pain

And i like it.

2008-10-26T01:16:00.003+08:00

Why do i feel troubled when u told me your troubles?

Why can't i eat down the food i am supposed to be eating?

Why do i have the urge to see you every moment?

Why can't i be there?

Why can't i be a help?

Why do i smile when you're here?

Why do i feel what you're going through?

2008-10-24T00:57:00.003+08:00

I'm sick.

My body parts malfunction

My nose 'runs' an my feet 'smells'

Zzzzz.

Terrible

Neck still ache

Wtf man!

我偷偷的看着你

想把你记录在我心里

2008-10-22T00:33:00.002+08:00

I found myself back finally

Whatever whatever~

Johnson,

It would be cycle that never ends

No more indulgence in it

Unnecessary moves are to be avoided

If its for you,it will come back to you eventually

If it isn't,well....

是你的就是你的

不是你的就不是你的

2008-10-15T23:48:00.005+08:00

I think i know whats going on between You and you

I think i don‘t know whats going on between You and you

But nvm nvm nvm nvm nvm nvm nvm nvm nvm nvm nvm

Time will tell

珍惜在你身边的每个人

当你在人海中寻找幸福时

一时忘了身边的人

其实就是他在你身边

一直呵护着你

一直守护着你

但你却万万没有想到

幸福就在你左右

被你爱过是幸福

我知道现在已不是我了

但愿是他能带给你幸福

是他，我知道

虽然放不下

虽然不想放

但我会尽力

世上最远的距离

不是天涯海角

而是我在你身边

你不知道我爱你!

Thats the least i could do

Not to spoil good things

随缘

Surrender to Fate.

2008-10-14T01:25:00.000+08:00

I never wanted to bid farewell

But its too late.

2008-10-13T23:20:00.004+08:00

Sianz

First day of school sibei sianz

I still in holiday mood la

I dun wanna go school

I wan sleep at home! :D

Go school jiu teach le

So fast, never give time to tune back

Went to sing post eat with Kl and co.

Chit chatted there

Then went to Lionel's home to take my calculator

Went home after that.

Why am i hiding a smile when i'm in front of you? :(

I dare not look up

Don't tell me i am still...

Sigh.

2008-10-13T20:11:00.002+08:00

Well, guess this is it?

Take it that i dunno anything

Forget it

Isn't that the answer you wanted?

You got it.

Take it that i am not for you

There is someone much better beside you

Bye.

2008-10-11T23:32:00.005+08:00

Hey

Thanks for being there

I really felt much better after talking to you

Haha

Hard on you tell me leh

I dun wan throw everything to you

Thx anyway!

Paper feeling!

Haha

2008-10-11T21:45:00.003+08:00

Well, woke up

Went to church

Eg was re shuffled

After that went to take dinner

Went back to office for meeting

Then went home first.

Thats it

I can't take it anymore

I ran,because i dun wanna let you see i wept.

If its like that..

Bye bye

2008-10-11T01:03:00.005+08:00

Woke up by sms in the morning

@.@

Then went to use com

And went back to sleep again

Lols.

After that headed to tm

Met up with Kl Darius Lionel and Bernadus

Walked around and saw the gals

After that some went to the movies while others went to eat

Saw Madeline in basement

Haha

Went to arcade play ball

Then to food court chit chat

Caught up with the rest later on

Lazed around open plaza later on

Then Went to Long John

I went to Charlie's house

The rest proceeded to Jon's house

Bernard's dog is damn nice to cuddle with!

I kept playing with his dog

Haha

So nice luhs!

If i got one of my own, that would be good~

Joined the others with Bernard at Paya Lebar for dinner later on

Dinner-ed

Homed.

Bro, take one step at a time

Chill out homie

I understand how you feel

You've got only 3 weeks liddat before u fly?

Haha.

Find opportunities to ask her out la!

Dun leave for now before you have any regrets!

And

Bring your guts out to tell her those words!

Damn

I am just feeling so helpless

I can't do anything

I can just only stand and watch from afar

Sigh.

为什么这样子?

2008-10-08T16:07:00.001+08:00

Condition now - Fragile , Brittle .

2008-10-08T01:47:00.002+08:00

At times at this hour of the every night

I begin to let my mind take flight

Resting my eyes, outta sight

Takes me to another realm

Where words and visions of the past came

Beautiful,just so beautiful

I never ever wanna get outta it

At times like this

The wall got nailed by my fist

Hoping to give the situation i'm in now a twist

Why things happened just like this?

No one ever ever knew how i felt

One word from you and i will melt

Its just that magical

But it takes time to let this be a miracle

Why liddat? Why liddat? Why liddat?

I just want things to get better

But why it ain't getting any?

Why? Why? Why?

And yea,

Why's my keyboard wet?

2008-10-06T22:36:00.007+08:00

Watching tv shows make me feel better

Listening to songs makes me feel easier to express myself

Times like that i find it torturing

It just past so slow

I dun wanna imagine how i will go on for the following months

But when it comes,i am prepared to walk alone

Like how i did, back then.

能不能给我一首歌的时间

紧紧的把那拥抱变成永远

在我的怀里

不用太多失眠

如果你想忘记我也能适应

能不能给我一首歌的时间

把故事听到最后才说再见

你送我的眼泪让他留在雨天

如果你怀疑一心的依然勇气当作鄙夷

2008-10-02T23:06:00.006+08:00

Man~

What a day.

Woke up at 1045.

Then went to meet Martin at Damai Sec.

Before that had a bad stomachache. =.=

What the hell lo

The toliets around the vicinity there no squat de ahh

I tahan til i find one.

Zzz.

Done with my 'business' then went to meet him

Esther came along later on.

Accompanied her take lunch

After that along came those Damai students.

Chatted and waited for Darius and Lionel.

Left for Stanley's house later on.

Headed to Bedok Inter library alone

Sat at there, pondering stuffs

Went to meet Crystal,Aloysius and Esther in the evening

Then proceeded to NTUC to buy stuffs for children.

Me and Crystal left for Grace's home while the rest went home

Reached there

Fellowshipped

Accompanied Crystal to Parkway Parade to settle her phone bills.

Homed.

Zzzz.

Oh ya,Crystal finally got her goodie bag!

=.=

Thats probably the shame of my life

I am actually so,so,so stupid.

Nvm,now i know.

What an idiot i am.

Its just a one-sided thought of mine all along.

Foolish me

I really need a damn big hole to hide my face!

算了啦！

2008-10-01T23:36:00.004+08:00

Had not slept enough for today.

Ytd slept at 5. =.=

Went to visit Stanley in the afternoon.

After that headed to Parkway with Kelvin

Played arcade

Kl and bernard joined later on.

Headed to Mac for dinner.

Went to Hougang Mall

Then went home.

I am a total idiot.

I am so ashamed

2008-10-01T02:16:00.004+08:00

Woke up.

Used com.

Lunch~ed.

Slack.

Went out to buy stuffs.

Home~d.

Dinner.

Tv.

Com.

Lols.

自从那件事之后

我心里很乱

也本身认为失去了你

所以不敢跟自己感觉决走

也认为给得了你幸福的人不是我

还以为你找到了所要的幸福

所以我才.....

对不起

2008-09-30T15:50:00.002+08:00

So near,yet so far.

看着你落在别人的怀抱

真是叫人心痛

但我也没办法

眼睁睁的看着

只能保持沉默

If i can't give you your desired happiness, i rather let go

Don't want to,but have to.

I know its no turning back anymore

Love is about happiness.

2008-09-30T01:45:00.002+08:00

Sigh.

Soon,very soon

A year is gonna come to an end

Memories

Good ones,bad ones,memorable ones

Stored up

This year is just sooo..

说好的幸福呢?

2008-09-28T22:51:00.003+08:00

STANLEY!!!

GET WELL SOON MAN!

I MISS YOUR ENTERTAINING VOICE DURING ANNOUNCEMENT TIME!

COME BACK QUICK!

我还记得

我不会忘记

我所说的

我都记得

如果说分手时苦痛的起点

那在终点之前我愿意在爱一遍

2008-09-26T23:32:00.003+08:00

Those memories just flashed past.

Wept.

Why?

I really dunno man.

Accidentally in love?

Its not the same ANYMORE now

Til today,i'm still wondering why.

爱一个不爱你的人好难.

2008-09-23T01:21:00.002+08:00

Just be friends?

If thats good for us.

If..

2008-09-21T23:48:00.003+08:00

I'm gonna run and run

I'm gonna hide and hide

Ima prevent myself from getting inflicted

Shunning away

Thats what i will do

Pain,so pain,just so pain

Sights that inflicts

I won't see

I will close my eyes

Just to make myself feel better

Call me a coward

I'm fine

I don't wanna feel that hurt and pain anymore

I'm a stupid fool yea?

I feel so broken

And i give up.

I gave it all

I have no regrets

Jealousy sucks big time

Blind me

May you find your desired happiness

越爱越难过。

I still love you.

2008-09-20T22:55:00.006+08:00

Wtf la.

Why won't the motha-****~ing neck ache **** off?

Church-ed

After that went to have dinner at Sg post.

Took mac for dinner.

Then sent people home

Bla~

Then went home.

Sights that hurt,i avoid

Confused.

2008-09-18T00:50:00.005+08:00

无能为力

我也没权利

看来是在打败仗

我是否该投降？

2008-09-18T00:50:00.003+08:00

When this is not that and that is not this

When whats on the surface isn't exactly what it is

When things just don't get better

When it just gets worst

When things don't get to be sort out clearly

When misunderstandings take place.

When i need a breather

When i can't have it bottled up anymore

If only you could understand what i've been going through these 6 months.

When will i ever see a rainbow after rain?

Forget it,i know its impossible.

If only you could..

2008-09-16T16:41:00.001+08:00

Who got the song '继续爱上你' by'唐禹哲'? Send me pls. T.T

2008-09-15T12:56:00.002+08:00

We have drifted apart.

Far apart.

And yeah,far apart.

And its just so...

2008-09-15T00:21:00.004+08:00

Its half past 12 in the night

If the sky is bright

I would go outta fly a kite

Letting go all my troubles fly high to a greater height

Soaring above the misty clouds

Water vapour slowly formed

Causing visions blurred

Troubles conformed,Past haunt

No longer able to withhold

Poured down like rushing river

Every drip that came from above side of my liver

Meant a whole damn lot of pain that caused quiver

To my heart,i do not beg to differ

It all just operates in the inside

No one knows it even if they're just beside

Got an insight,i choose to decide

Recite,its you that i still reside

You're the reason i reside,You're the reason i reside

Sometimes,when it gets too sticky in the inside

I feel like crying,i feel like dying

Sometimes when the sucky feeling came

I feel like sighing,i feel like blinding

No one knows,i hide it well

Given the circumstances i'm down

Manage to hide the frown

Right on top of the mount

Rolling down,and yeah

I lost my count.

SIgh, Why liddat? Why liddat? Why liddat?

If communication isn't a prob now

2008-09-12T22:58:00.003+08:00

Stuffs i wanna get rid of right now.

1. Neckache

2.Blister

3.Tiredness

4.Sprained ankle

Zzzzz..

Theres nothing i could do now.

But to wait,which i am doing it.

Thats the only move i could execute.

I can wait til countless moments

I just need your trust.

Everything i do,i always have you in mind.

Trust me,pls?

Sigh.

2008-09-11T22:55:00.003+08:00

Exams are finally over.

Holidays are here.

Zzzz.

But still, i rather i be in school.

I think i'm falling sick soon.

My conscience is clear.

盼不到我爱的人

我知道我愿意再等

2008-09-10T00:46:00.002+08:00

Your life has become my playlist.

**** la.

My neck ache is still here with me.

At times i wanna go bang wall die.

Damn freak ass pain la.

Had Maths exam today.

Blanked 20 marks.

Confident of getting the remaining 80.

But not too over confident though.

Thursday will be my last paper and i'm done with first year.

Woo~

Went to Fengshan cc play ball.

Then proceed to 116 played saucer.

Ok,its been long since i last played.

My resistance ain't that good anymore.

Went to eat then played Monopoly later on.

Long game.

Never manage to end.

Homed.

Sometimes,i just wish theres only time for us.

I'm afraid every move i made again will be a mistake to you.

Instead of getting better,i'm afraid it got worst.

I wanna save it.

I don't wanna execute another wrong move.

2008-09-08T13:56:00.001+08:00

Britney Spears - Sometimes

You tell me you're in love with me
Like you can't take your pretty eyes away from me
It's not that I don't want to stay
But every time you come too close I move away

I wanna believe in everything you say
'Cause it sounds so good
But if you really want me, move slow
There's things about me you just have to know

[CHORUS:]
Sometimes I run
Sometimes I hide
Sometimes I'm scared of you
But all I really want is to hold you tight
Treat you right, be with you day and night
Baby all I need is time

I don't wanna be so shy
Every time that I'm alone I wonder why
Hope that you will wait for me
You'll see that you're the only one for me

I wanna believe in everything that you say
'Cause it sounds so good
But if you really want me, move slow
There's things about me you just have to know

[Repeat CHORUS]

Jest hang around and you'll see
There's nowhere I'd rather be
If you love me, trust in me
The way that I trust in you

2008-09-07T22:37:00.004+08:00

The DAY finally came.

One week of hard work finally put to the test today.

DREAMZ service was great today.

However the ambience is kinda weird,to me.

Skit performance was great,Preaching was fantastic.

It was just 2 valuable hours precious lesson.

After that took lunch and went back to help to move stuffs to office.

Slacked at there til evening 5 liddat then went to _____ bbq.

Sat around.

Then went home at 8-9 plus ba.

无法控制的眼泪就这样滴

滴下了我的脸孔

我明白了

虽然还不能在一起

但愿沉默的等待
将会让彼此更珍惜自己

希望彼此心里的战不会轻易被打败

坚持到底

因为从你眼里

我看见了永远。

你快乐吗？

2008-09-03T23:23:00.007+08:00

Woots.

Had 'Amazing Race' today.

First time leading a team.

Scary luhs.

Managed to complete the entire thing.

Not on time though.

But we sure had fun along the way.

Gosh~

I got my stomach filled with watermelon in the end.

Haha. Nice. Juicy.

After such a long day of event

What i need is a good rest. =D

I really thank and appreciate each and every individual member whose in my team.

You guys make a great team.

I would like to apologize to y'all if i din lead well in the team.

Its my first time though,but i will work harder.

I'm sorry if we never get 1st or 2nd place.

After all,y'all make a great team man.

Wouldn't be able to complete the race without you guys!

Thx man! :D

Sometimes i run,Sometimes i hide.

Sometimes i'm scared of You.

But all i really want is to hold You tight.

Treat You right,be with You day and night.

At times when it seems like i don't bother,

In fact,i do bother.

Every single thing.

At times i put on a strong front.

But deep inside,i'm really,really afraid that...

Times will get hard.

Til You know,I'll be waiting.

Trust You with all my heart.

2008-09-01T23:54:00.002+08:00

Had great fun today man.

Thx all for playing today.

Really appreciated.

Made me think back of my secondary school days.

Play again sometime man.

Its ok~ I'm alright~ I think God can explain~

2008-08-31T00:50:00.003+08:00

Someone please chop off my head please.

ASAP.

ZZZZZ.

I can't take the motha-****~ing neck ache anymore!

很辛苦啊!!

Theres lots i wanna say to You.

Things i wanna let You know.

2008-08-30T01:38:00.003+08:00

做任何事都要对自己有信心。

Thats what i told myself.

Yea,任何事.

2008-08-28T22:58:00.001+08:00

My neck ache ain't getting any better.

Zzzz.

Terrible luhs.

2008-08-26T23:26:00.004+08:00

Exams are just round the corner.

Zzzz.

I'm afraid man.

Though its only 2 subjects,

Sure hope i can pass with good results

And not just a pass.

SIgh.

Days just felt like years.

I miss you,badly.

希望你能相信我

我的心只属于你一个.

Will You still be waiting?

2008-08-26T15:33:00.001+08:00

2008-08-25T23:38:00.002+08:00

When i walked outta the toilet

I saw something on the floor

Something brown, got wings.

I dare not take another step forward

ITS HUGE LA.

Thats a cockroach.

I looked at it for 10s.

Then scurried my way to my bedroom

Took out a book.

And SMACK DA ASS OUTTA IT.

Zzzzz.

Weird

It did a backflip.

When i thought it was dead

I tried to pick up with toilet paper.

Then TA MA DE!,it struggled!

ZZZZZZ!

This time i took "Maths Count 5"

Cockroaches can't do Maths,they have small brains

Threw at it.

Heard something juicy.

Lift it up..

And yeah,dead.

=.=

2008-08-25T11:56:00.000+08:00

Damn.

I'm having bad neck aches recently.

2008-08-21T23:50:00.002+08:00

Before i realize,it ain't the same

In this real life,what's with this game

Getting started in da womb

Eventually ending up in da tomb

Before hitting the rocky tomb

Learn to crawl,learn to walk

Learn to brawl,learn to talk

Moved 2 light boxes on your steppa life

Attended education when i was five

All i remember was throwing veggies under table

Its like discarding corpses in the soil by an undertaker

The fear of every child is having your mum to be away from you

During your youngest period of education,be it malay or who

Pain to the ears is those who can't take incessant "melody" of lil kids

Its such a tragedy or maybe catastrophe listening to cries like drill bits

Pity to the teachers,speaking like preachers

Teaching lil imps with good education

Itching for beating whenever they fail a dictation

Another step taken on da board,an easy step

There were buses on the map

Instructing to lead us to primary school

Daily routine everyday was to sing the national anthem

Ponder to myself,if there was one that allows us to sing in da sanctum

I don't wish to appear in the morning,coming out in da night,like a phantom

Can't escape the anthem,so tried to sing with my rectum

Never once succeeded,instead it depleted

Whatever happened,it happened

Those years in there got my mind fattened

I love it as i always got people threatened

Time after time,6 years past

Got my ass,outta the class

Moving on with another step to a higher level

Hoping to become someone clever

Years in primary cannot be compared to tears in secondary

Walking back into lanes and avenues of a place called "Memories"

Storing and collecting precious moments behind every galleries.

If i could seize the moment,try to squeeze it and own it

Try to freeze it as i consider these minutes golden

We cant stop time,neither can we buy with dime

Thats when Fear got me filled on my mind

The Fear of losing your friends

The Fear of losing someone*

The Fear of losing your loved ones

Fear that bring tears to ma eyes

Nailed by those Fears

Flailed by those tears

Causing my sights to be blur,not clear

I find troubles in wiping it off

And so i took a cloth,soaked it into the broth

Wiping it off,ouch!

My eye's burnt

Thats when i can't open

After that

i realized

It ain't the same anymore.

2008-08-21T11:56:00.005+08:00

There are too many soldiers in the field..

Overwhelmed,by Fear.

2008-08-21T11:31:00.002+08:00

Had 3 mini projects for class today..

Teacher was good..

Let us copy the work.

Haha..

I "did" finish le.

Then took a rest..

Listened to songs..

Then my friend,Pram,approached me..

Pram:"You got ruler?"

What i heard was..

Pram:"You pass up already?"

As i had earpiece attached in my ears.

Then i replied..

Me:"I pass up le."

Pram:"RULER LA!"

Me:"ORHH! RULER AH!!.. eh,no."

My friends beside me was like bursting into laughter..

=.=

2008-08-21T00:09:00.005+08:00

Awkward.

Sticky.

Uncomfortable.

I'm good,I'm good..

I'm alright,I'm alright.

Sometimes,i do wish i have blurry visions.

Or no sight.

Sigh

2008-08-19T23:45:00.002+08:00

Its been a long time since i tuned in to radio in late night le..

Haha..

I'm getting it back..

I hope..

Johnson

Be more optimistic.

2008-08-19T01:02:00.001+08:00

When i say i am,I'm not.

2008-08-19T00:38:00.002+08:00

I wish i could be .....

2008-08-18T15:39:00.001+08:00

I'm not gonna let the flame douse.

Let it burn~ Let it burn~

As long as i live,it will burn.

2008-08-17T18:13:00.001+08:00

It just pricks.
Unknowingly it pricks.
Pain,so pain.
But still,gotta put on a bold front.
This is what i told myself.
I will just let it hurt.

:D

Sigh.

2008-08-17T00:52:00.002+08:00

Churched today..
Great man..
Haha..
I got myself worn out..
Zzzz..
After that went to paya lebar eat..
Talk talk talk..
Lols.. So long nvr talk like that before le..
Haha..
Went home after that..

I just gotta keep telling myself,and telling myself.
Just pretend that everything that you thought will not turn out to be what you have thought.
Urghh~ What am i talking..?
And just stay happy.

2008-08-15T22:23:00.003+08:00

Been there,Done that..

So long never talk to you le you still the same.. =.=
Haha..
You ahh,Lols..
Its good that we still have that mutual trust and respect.. =D
Hmmm,maybe what you say could be right..
Perhaps i should ..... ... ..... .
Then maybe ... ... ... .... .... .. .. .
Alright then,.'.. ... .

2008-08-15T14:52:00.002+08:00

Thx.
Just for being there.

2008-08-15T00:47:00.000+08:00

Friend,Enemy,or Frienemy?

2008-08-14T12:44:00.001+08:00

Jordin Sparks
One Step At A Time

[Verse 1]
Hurry up and wait
So close, but so far away
Everything that you've always dreamed of
Close enough for you to taste
But you just can't touch

[Bridge]
You wanna show the world, but no one knows your name yet
Wonder when and where and how you're gonna make it
You know you can if you get the chance
In your face and the door keeps slamming
Now you're feeling more and more frustrated
And you're getting all kind of impatient waiting

[Chorus]
We live and we learn to take
One step at a time
There's no need to rush
It's like learning to fly
Or falling in love
It's gonna happen and it's
Supposed to happen that we
Find the reasons why
One step at a time

[Verse 2]
You believe and you doubt
You're confused, you got it all figured out
Everything that you always wished for
Could be yours, should be yours, would be yours
If they only knew

[Bridge]
You wanna show the world, but no one knows your name yet
Wonder when and where and how you're gonna make it
You know you can if you get the chance
In your face and the door keeps slamming
Now you're feeling more and more frustrated
And you're getting all kind of impatient waiting

[Chorus]
We live and we learn to take
One step at a time
There's no need to rush
It's like learning to fly
Or falling in love
It's gonna happen and it's
Supposed to happen that we
Find the reasons why
One step at a time

[Verse 3]
When you can't wait any longer
But there's no end in sight
When you need to find the strength
It's the faith that makes you stronger
The only way we get there
Is one step at a time

[Chorus]
Take one step at a time
There's no need to rush
It's like learning to fly
Or falling in love
It's gonna happen and it's
Supposed to happen that we
Find the reasons why
One step at a time

[Chorus]
One step at a time
There's no need to rush
It's like learning to fly
Or falling in love
It's gonna happen and it's
Supposed to happen that we
Find the reasons why
One step at a time

2008-08-12T23:49:00.003+08:00

A needle is lethal and sharp
Thicker than the strings of a harp
Plunged straight,deep into my heart
Fatal blow,do not touch
No surgeons can pull it out,without a cut
It just hurts so much
I could simply die,even when being nudge
Collect my blood
Have it stored in a cup
Mix it well with some pea and nuts
Bake it to a tray of fudge
Its free for anyone to their clutch
Squash it,squeeze it but do not eat it
Bad blood ain't nice
It doesn't go well with fried rice
Throw into the bin and only mice will say yum yum nice
Enough of mere nonsense
Searching deep into clear conscience
Hoping to find my tear potions
Walking deeper and deeper in the thoughts of my guilty conscience
Feeling like a fool
Standing tall on a broken stool
Sticking back with "UHU" glue
Strong and lasting but broken,left with no clue
Got my hands caught to the super glue
Curious outta the blue
Thinking that consuming it will be able to catch a flu
Put it on my tongue instead looks so cool
Project what the outcome,makes u look like a tool
Now thats what i call a fool who thinks that one's cool
Statements that sounds so true
Perhaps nothing better to do
Shady's gonna be crude
Ladies gonna be screwed
Babies gonna turn into fruits
Mecerdez gonna move with foot
Gonna be ruthless
For the sake of goodness
Even if it takes to make one toothless
Clearing all evidence
Turning it into proof-less
Feeling so moodless
Guess i will get better in time
So i'm writing,in advance,this letter of fine
Turning this matter to grime
Putting it to a chapter of mime
Bees moving silently with nectar to hive
Leaving absolute silentness
Hands are sticky
Getting the honey off sounds tricky
Just smear it on the fig tree
Attracting other insects to stick it
Now the nectar is gone
My hand is torn
Still contains the sweetness of a corn
No more strength to pick up another prompt
Weaker than before,moving on without a stomp
Going alone in the storm
Its okay as i know where its coming from
The future is gonna be tough
Walking on a path thats rough
Believing and striving on with trust
Soon i will be outta my crust
Taking on the challenges with a MUST!!!!

希望你明白
Will You still be .......?
I will respect your decision.

我会学着放弃你
是因为我太爱你.

2008-08-12T16:11:00.002+08:00

Nothing's fine I'm torn~

I hate being phunked.
Went to school..
Had Maths lesson..
Went home..
Went to school again..
For C programming test..
Ass..
Suppose to have test..
Instead,went there took attendance.. =.=
My group is next week..
Later on had FPC..
But then i dun wanna go..
Later gotta wait an hour and a half..
Then later teacher say dun have..
I dun wanna expect that man..
Headed home then..

I'm so ashamed of myself..
Every move i made,seems to be a mistake..
But its worth it,to me..
I will learn from my mistakes.
I dun care how or what others think..
For you i will..

What hurts the most
Was being so close
Having so much to say..
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
<3

2008-08-11T22:26:00.002+08:00

Bored day..
Stared at com almost for the whole day..
How i wish today was the end of the world..

是嫉妒心充满了我.

2008-08-11T00:43:00.005+08:00

暗恋是单恋
单恋是痛苦
我是佛在一厢情愿？
看你摇着头说不后悔，
要我放心勇敢往前飞
你心里触动的下一首已经不是我
或许是看不见
只能够靠感觉
每一天，每一夜
我都默默的守着
却就是等不到
为何我爱的一切没有结果？
是我太傻了

或许你已不在乎了
可能是我真的在一厢情愿
你还爱__ 。

你的美已经给了谁?

2008-08-10T22:54:00.003+08:00

2008-08-09T23:28:00.003+08:00

不知你在乎吗，

Finally i stepped outta Singapore..
Lols..
Went to Pulau Ubin today..
The weather is so ****-ing hot..
Zzzzz..
Buay tahan..
Took boat to there..
Settled down there..
Had games and fun..
Haha..
Man i 'm tired.. =.=
Almost faint there..
Rained towards the end of the programmes..
Left the island at around 5 plus liddat..
All went to Esther's and Jon's house later on..
Swam awhile then went up to rest..
I'm so tired man..
Left for home at 10..

Who could that be?

好想再多看你一眼..
D:

2008-08-08T22:24:00.002+08:00

Zzzz..
How i wish theres no school today..
Went to Yishun campus today..
Damn..
Dunno why..
I am super duper tired today..
My eyes could barely open..
When i reached the campus..
I wanted to find a place to rest..
My stomach's bothering me too..
Blame it on me,for consuming ice cream at late night.. =.=
Lols.. Had assembly at he parade ground..
Sung national anthem.. =.= (never sing it for like 6 months?)
Then got attendance taken..
Went to canteen to settle down..
After that went off..
Zzzzz.. I dunno how to walk in Yishun..
So,Liang brought me to North point..
My stomachache is killing me..
Headed to the loo straight..
Got myself relieved..
Then took 969 to tamp inter..
Walked around..
Went home..
Bought lunch..
Ate le took a nap..
Out with KL later on..
Went home at around 7 plus..
Then watched tv programmes..
Sigh~

Sometimes,its hard to be the older one among ur siblings..
Especially when you're the oldest one..
Your younger one will tend to look up to you as an example..
Whatever you do,they will tend to follow..
Its kinda true..
When you and your siblings were young,you tend to enjoy those times with him/her.
Thinking back,it just simply bring tears..
Haiz..
If you wan ur younger sibling to respect you,set an example first..
Its tough though..

My patience,somehow,has its limits.
Alright,i give in and give in and give in..
I quiet quiet is because i dun wanna pick a quarrel with you..
I know if we quarreled,things is gonna be far worst than it is in the past when we quarreled.
Think la,you wan play ur game i give u play..
After school i give u use til at night..
Your time flexible,my time not right?
I want play games with my friends also..
But still,i gave u play..
Time after time..
I just request you to give me use punctually at time only..
10 sharp gimme use..
you go drag drag drag til 11 plus..
I can only use til 12 liddat..
I and you morning school too..
You after school come back use from 3 liddat til 10-11 plus..
I'm ok with it.. I overused abit u wan come shout at me..
Just now i want use awhile nia u call me dun touch..
I'm fuming in my heart.. but still,i just cant bring myself to scold the living hell outta you..
I'm trying real hard to be as good to you already..
When i wanna treat you better,i always take the initiative to talk to you..
Its hard,but i still spoke to you..
You return me with ur attitude..
I'm ok.. Dad said you..
I told Dad too..
I am giving in and taking the initiative already..
You're still my brother afterall..
Please,one day will u.....?

我没有你的消息，
因为我在想你.
<3

2008-08-07T22:38:00.002+08:00

School was boring..
Zzzzz..
Lols..
Teacher gave us did some revision on our industrial automation..
I dunno sia..
Die la..
After that went home straight..
No money take lunch.. =.=
Reached home le..
Changed clothes then went out with LKL..
Met Robbie later on..
Fellowshipped.. =D
Then cabbed home..

想死你了.
<3

2008-08-07T02:00:00.002+08:00

Memories.

2008-08-06T23:34:00.003+08:00

Wednesday Wednesday Wednesday~
Lols..

Went to school..
had Maths revision today..
Oh so good~
Without the revision i would be so dead..
Zzzzz. i almost forget what i learnt in the past months..
Had PE after that..
Me and Liang went to gym..
Did some training and went to join the rest of the class..
Class were playing floorball..
I sat around and watched them play..
Went to canteen eat then go home..
Used com..
Then took a nap before going to cg..
Woa..
Cg was great..
Haha..
1000 member church.. Hmmm?
Seems impossible,But its possible though.. =D
After cg cabbed home with Jia Le and KL..
Reached home..
Took my late dinner..
Then used com..

就只有你一个.
<3

2008-08-05T22:09:00.002+08:00

Every single thing i do,
I always think of You..
You're always,and always the first and last thing on my mind..
Its true..

Had Maths lesson today..
Zzzz..
Supposed to dun have C programming lesson today de,
But teacher say give us revision..
Dui.. =.=
So had C programming..
Slept through it luhs.. BORED LEH..
After that went home..
Went with kl and his family for dinner for his bdae..
And and.. Heineken is nice.. =.=
I still can walk in a straight line pls..
Chill out bro..
Took a cab home tgt later on..
I ain't tipsy..

I Love You so much la,Baby.

难道你还不明白吗？
我爱的就只有你一个.
你是我的唯一
<3

2008-08-04T22:37:00.002+08:00

你出现在我诗的每一页;

Happy Birthday Belinda!
Hope u like the bottle. =X

Damn..
I'm like so blur?
Zzzz..
Today morning class was supposed to be cancelled..
I came to school..
reached at 8..
Teacher told me to go back.. =.=
Had lesson at 10.. Shag.
Dun wan go.. So i went home..
Reached home..tired..
Slept from 10-1..
Then went out..
Bla~
Met kl at tm after that..
Walked around..
Caught "Money Not Enough 2"
Its kinda hilarious,and touching..
After the show,went home..
Worn out.

Until You know,I'll be waiting.
I won't walk out.
也许一天在挤满行人的那一条街,
你才会发现我留下的空缺

我接着写把"永远爱你"写进诗的结尾
你是我唯一想要的了解.
<3

2008-08-03T22:10:00.004+08:00

1,2,3,4,5,6.
1,2,3,4,5.
1,2,3,4.
1,2,3.
1,2.
1.

Its been a long time since i touched my pencil and paper..
Haha.. =P
I wanna try out designing in the camp tee man..

I hate it la..
My mum actually bought durians back from her work..
Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr~ =.=

Slept at 530 in the morning today.. =.=
Woke up at 830..
Eyes super swollen..
Zzzz..
Went back to sleep again til 11 plus..
Then used com..
Left home for tm alone later on..
The weather is hot..
Walked around to get stuff..
Bought le went to eastlink eat..
Damn..
3 meat one egg $5 bucks.. =.=
Eat,eat,eat..
Went home after that..
Reached home le..
Went out again..
Lols.. =/
Met kl after that..
Went home..

"Uncle ahh,May i know where is block 16?"
Haha.. =D

Its hard to be a better person.

Trust me,girl.
And no wind ain't gonna shake me
You will always be my baby.

For You i will. <3

2008-08-03T04:14:00.004+08:00

Yesterday was a long day..
Enjoyed it though..
Woke up early in da morning..
Then went to meet Kl at his house bus stop there..
After that headed to Hougang point.
Waited for pastor under void deck..
We are supposed to help out in pasting some advertisements in property agency..
And so,we moved from blocks to blocks..
Woa,its perspiring man..
Took us an hour plus to complete the task..
Man it was tiring.. haha..
Took a cab down to church office..
Attended bible studies..
Had a session with ting jie later on..
Then went for Festival Of Praise..
Those who missed it,its such a pity man..
But nvm,theres still next year..
After that went for supper with KL and Jia Le and Macdonalds..
Went home..
Mixed,confused..

When so much back..
When i'm in my late years of primary sch,coming to mid year of sec school..
I was there..
He was there..
When i thought he is the only one that could accept what i threw..
And true enough..
He can.. At that time,i didn't care much..
I find him like a direct current..
So free and easy going..
Shared what is in our minds w/o hesitation..
Somehow,my guilty conscience hit me..
Whether what i did,the way i treated him,was appropriate or not..
He had drifted far away now..
And i am sailing back..
Somehow my paddle broke..

And now.. I'm here..
Into a so-called new environment..
Experiencing diff ppl personalities..
And came to knew that it ain't the same..
Still,i brought the same attitude i had along..
Applying to everyone..
Somehow got hit back certain times..
Accept it though..
By then i learnt that its not the same anymore..
This time,my guilty conscience hit me backed harder..
Thinking whether is that a mistake,or is it a blessing in disguise?
A blessing that would make me wake up from my senses..
I am stubborn.. And thats so damn true..
I gotta admit though..
Things that are right,somehow,i mean somehow,i knew..
Things that are wrong,somehow,and i mean somehow,i knew..
Still,i choose to do the vice versa way..
Thats how stubborn i am..
Saying this not to gain anything or what..
Frankly,i'm still in my 'sleep'..
I 'chose' not to wake up from it..
Many impacts hit me..
But still my stubborn front made me fall..
Its hard to crack that..
By saying that,i already lost half of the battle..
I know..
Urghhh~
How much more clearer can i put it man..?
I ponder*
Theres more to come,i guess..

I hate to be kept in the dark.

Thx.
I really appreciate it..
Every lil move You made..
It matters a whole damn lot to me.
At least i know,You still care.

I'm afraid,afraid of something..
Something that..

我愿意等到我最后一口气. <3

2008-08-01T23:10:00.002+08:00

Woo..
Today had our game presentation to the NEA..
Haa..
Finally what we busy for had come to an end..
Zzz...
After that went to had my lunch in canteen..
Then went home..
Bathed.. Slept awhile..
Went to Kl house to slack..
Lols..
Dined at KFC alone..
Went home..

Girl,you're my first and will be the last..
My one and only..
I realized that i just simply couldn't live without you..
From that moment onwards,i told myself..
"I'm not gonna let you go"

Tell me I'm Yours. <3