Yesterday was a long day..
Enjoyed it though..
Woke up early in da morning..
Then went to meet Kl at his house bus stop there..
After that headed to Hougang point.
Waited for pastor under void deck..
We are supposed to help out in pasting some advertisements in property agency..
And so,we moved from blocks to blocks..
Woa,its perspiring man..
Took us an hour plus to complete the task..
Man it was tiring.. haha..
Took a cab down to church office..
Attended bible studies..
Had a session with ting jie later on..
Then went for Festival Of Praise..
Those who missed it,its such a pity man..
But nvm,theres still next year..
After that went for supper with KL and Jia Le and Macdonalds..
Went home..
Mixed,confused..

When so much back..
When i'm in my late years of primary sch,coming to mid year of sec school..
I was there..
He was there..
When i thought he is the only one that could accept what i threw..
And true enough..
He can.. At that time,i didn't care much..
I find him like a direct current..
So free and easy going..
Shared what is in our minds w/o hesitation..
Somehow,my guilty conscience hit me..
Whether what i did,the way i treated him,was appropriate or not..
He had drifted far away now..
And i am sailing back..
Somehow my paddle broke..

And now.. I'm here..
Into a so-called new environment..
Experiencing diff ppl personalities..
And came to knew that it ain't the same..
Still,i brought the same attitude i had along..
Applying to everyone..
Somehow got hit back certain times..
Accept it though..
By then i learnt that its not the same anymore..
This time,my guilty conscience hit me backed harder..
Thinking whether is that a mistake,or is it a blessing in disguise?
A blessing that would make me wake up from my senses..
I am stubborn.. And thats so damn true..
I gotta admit though..
Things that are right,somehow,i mean somehow,i knew..
Things that are wrong,somehow,and i mean somehow,i knew..
Still,i choose to do the vice versa way..
Thats how stubborn i am..
Saying this not to gain anything or what..
Frankly,i'm still in my 'sleep'..
I 'chose' not to wake up from it..
Many impacts hit me..
But still my stubborn front made me fall..
Its hard to crack that..
By saying that,i already lost half of the battle..
I know..
Urghhh~
How much more clearer can i put it man..?
I ponder*
Theres more to come,i guess..

I hate to be kept in the dark.

Thx.
I really appreciate it..
Every lil move You made..
It matters a whole damn lot to me.
At least i know,You still care.

I'm afraid,afraid of something..
Something that..


我愿意等到我最后一口气. <3